CHAPTER #12:

I was surprised. I separated a bit while looking at his eyes.

- Me: Wh…what?-I asked shocked.

He quickly put his arms around my waist, well, he held it attracting me. He didn’t stop staring at my lips. I think, I was in another world coz I wasn’t doing anything. One of his hands went directly to my cheek. He held it and he attracted it to him. He put his lips in mines…our lips were starting to touch…when he softly started to kiss me. O.O. I quickly withdrew. I looked at the guys, and everybody was: Ö, except Justin, that he was looking at us really angry.

- Me: Umm Chaz… I’m sorry but I can’t…

- Chaz: Why? Coz you love Justin? He has already a girlfriend!

- Me: :O I think you understood me…and now I see…you’re like all the boys… ¬¬-said leaving.

He held my arm.

- Chaz: Sorry, I’ve gone too far… I understand you, but you understand me?…

- Me: Yeah, I do. But…don’t make me things more complicated than they already are…please…- said nervous- let’s go with the rest.

- Chaz: Alright…

He went with the others. They were speechless. We picked up all the stuff and we left the beach. While we were on the car… {It was a MPV, in the front seats were: Ryan (driving) and Justin (co-pilot). In the middle seats, I was with Caitlin and Chaz. And in the back seats, they were Sammy and Chris (Selena had took her own car)}.

- Ryan: *looking throw the rearview-mirror* So… what’s up with you two, guys?-smiling.

- Caitlin: Yeah, so much touch…

- Chaz and me: Nothing.

- Chris: Hahaha. Yeah, sure…

I felt a bit uncomfortable. Justin was staring at me with a serious face. I looked away. We were arriving home when Chaz told me something whispering.

- Chaz: I wanna spend more time with you…I know you don’t wanna anything with me and I accept it…but…could we be… umm…friends with benefits or something like that? – said winking an eye.

O___O.

- Me: ……

I didn’t answer. I didn’t know what to say. I was speechless. Ryan parked and Justin and me went outta the car. We gave kisses to the others and we also gave each other kisses (without saying anything) and each one went to its house. I entered and my mom was there.

- Me: Hi mom.

- Mom: Sweetie, how was the day going?

- Me: Pretty fine :)

- Mom: Ou, tomorrow we’re going to go to grandma’s house, okay? It’s her birthday, and she’s making a barbeque.

- Me: Cool :)

I took a snack, I said good nite to mom and I went to my bedroom. I did all the stuff before going to sleep and after that I rested on my bed. It had been a funny day, except for that last moment :$. XD.  ˜˜ Next day, I woke up rested. Clock: 10.56. Okay, I took a really relaxing shower and I looked for clothes and I put on: a cheetah skirt, a white basic tank top and beige wedge heels. I put my hair up in a bun. Some make up and… ready. I went downstairs, I had breakfast and I waited my mom to get ready. I was watching the TV when…

- Newsreader: “Ladies and gentlemen. Today is an absolute chaos on Atlanta. Thousands of girls are screaming to watch their idol. They’ve been waiting here, camping, more than 2 weeks. Yeah, we’re talking about the phenomenon of the moment, Justin Bieber, everyone. He’s 17 years old and he’s having a huge success. Today at 7.30 pm is giving his last concert of the “My World Tour 2011” to his lovely beliebers. Bieber Fever is spreading worldwide. I think I also have Bieber Fever-laughed- *now, he put some scenes of that thousand of girls*.”

- Mom: Hun, I’m ready. We leave?

I turned off the TV and we left. We took the car and we arrived in half an hour. It had been a year since I didn’t see my grandma. We knocked the door and my grandma received us with opened arms. She was really pale.

- Me: Happy birthday, grandma! :)- hugging her.

- Grandma: Oh, thank *cough* you, hun :)-smiling-how’s my favorite granddaughter?

- Me: Hahaha. Fine :)

We went to the garden, and it was so many relatives there :O. Well, my aunts, my uncles, their daughters and sons etc. We were like 30 persons. XD. My uncle Tom was making the barbeque. I greeted him. We helped grandma putting all the plates, cutlery etc. We sat on the table and we started eating (it was 2.03 already). They were so many boys of my ages…I wonder how many cousins I had… XDD. After having dinner, I sat on the step of the garden and I thought. My grandma saw me and she sat next to me.

- Grandma: Boys troubles?

- Me: Well, yeah. More or less.

- Grandma: I’m still all ears.

- Me: Well, I’m in love with a boy, but he has already a girlfriend. And they look so happy together, so I’m not like those that try to separate people. But, it pisses me off so much. And I can’t stop thinking about him. And there’s another boy, really friendly and he makes me laugh so much and he loves me, but I don’t really love him the way he does…I just don’t know what to do…

- Grandma: I’m gonna tell you something my mom told me: we all want what we cannot have. Moreover, most of the times we wish what we want  *cough* , because it’s beyond of our scope or because it’s forbidden. Like in your situation.*cough* And it sometimes makes us paranoid, trapped in our own mind, without an escape plan,*cough* stunned by the doubt, with our desires like only guide, & then reality gives way and that’s when it happens. And do you want that?-I refused a bit serious- Hun, you’re smarter than you think.*cough* And you’ll take the right decision.

- Me: B-but… how do I know that, grandma? I mean, what I’ve to do to know if-

- Grandma: Listen to your heart, not that part that says that you’ve to close your heart to the others and wait to him to love you, but the other one. *so much cough*

- Me: Grandma, ARE YOU OKAY??!!-worried.

- Grandma: Yeah, hun, *cough* I am. It’s just that I’m old.

- Me: Your advices always help me so much, thank you grandma, seriously- hugging her.

- Grandma: Awh, you’re welcome hun, you’re welcome. Maybe that was the last advice I could tell you…

I looked at her with watery eyes. I hugged her so tightly. And she caressed my hair. I know she was 87 years old, but she was like my guardian angel. Everytime I needed something, she was always there.

- Grandma: Let’s take those sad moments apart, and let’s go with the others to dance *cough*. I’m still that grandma who knew how to have fun.

I stood up and helped her to stand up. Although she was old, she has willpower. ˜˜ It was 7.56 already. We started to pick the things up, we said goodbye and we left. We arrived home.

- Mom: Hun, I’m meeting Pattie now, coz she’s on Justin’s concert, and after that we’ll go to the starbucks. I’ll be back later, if you’re hungry, you’ve things prepared on the fridge, okay? :)

- Me: Okay mom :)-kisses on the cheek- bye.

She left and I went to my bedroom. I lay on the bed thinking. I stayed there like 2 hours thinking on the same thing. When I decided to stand up and go outside. I sat on the porch. I thought in grandma’s advice and I took my cellphone from my purse. I marked Chaz’s phone number and I was like: “I call him? Umm…no…well, I think I should…nahh he’s maybe busy… well, but I’ve to…naah tomorrow…” But a force was telling me to call “Okay, I’ll do”. I called him and I told him to come. He accepted. It was 10.35 pm already. 15 minutes later, he arrived smiling, he gave me two kisses and he sat next to me.

- Chaz: Heey :)- he looked at me up&down- Wow. You’re beautiful :).

- Me: Thanks :)…

- Chaz: So…what’s that important thing you’ve-

- Me: Oh my god, it’s so hot in here…umm… gonna take umm…an electric fan…

Thinkin: “Megan you’re stupid. “It’s so hot” “Gonna take an electric fan”. Come on! The most ridiculous thing I’ve ever said”. Well, I took that “electric fan” and went back to the porch.

- Me: Um sorry for interrupting you…what were you telling me?

- Chaz: I was asking you what was that important thing you’ve to tell me…

- Me: Oh, yeah…ummm…

NARRATED BY JUSTIN.

The concert had finished. I was so tired. I changed of clothes and went to Pinkberry to have an ice cream. After that, I called mom. She was meeting Megan’s mom, Janet. So, I took my car and I drove home. It was 40 minutes of trip, coz where the concert had been, was in the capital, and I lived on the south, so… I turned on the radio and a one of my favorite song was playing: U got it bad by Usher. When, suddenly, a beach scene came to my mind: Megan and Chaz kissing. ¬¬. I wondered if it meant they were together or it was just a kiss. No idea. I was a bit mad. Yeah, again.

NARRATED BY MEGAN.

- Me: You know that thing…umm…you told me before? Umm... about that friends with benefits?-messing while looking at him.

- Chaz: Yeah…I know it’s craz-

- Me: I accept :)

- Chaz: What??

- Me: Yeah, I accept it. But, just friends with benefits…not more far…

- Chaz: And…what made you change of opinion? And why?

- Me: It doesn’t matter now.

- Chaz: Okay…are you sure?

- Me: Yeah, I am.

I think that was the best choice. Coz well, one hand: I was so in love with Justin. But he had a girlfriend, so I wasn’t going to stay all my life waiting for him to love me. And other hand, it was just being “friends with benefits” not being girlfriend and boyfriend, so… ;; He smiled at me with naughty smile, he was caressing my cheek, he came nearer and…

NARRATED BY JUSTIN.

YEAH! I was finally arriving home. I opened the garage and I parked the car. I closed the door of the garage to enter home. I was walking to the porch when suddenly, I saw Megan and Chaz kissing. Well, no. They were eating each other’s mouths.  O_O. Thinking: *What the fuck? O.O* But, I tried to tell myself: “I don’t give a damn, they can do whatever they want to”...

TO BE CONTINUED…