CHAPTER #16:

{FLASHBACK: Wow…; Suddenly, Ryan…}

Ryan was going to say something and he almost drowned with his pizza. I laughed in silence.

- Ryan:  AYEE GUYS!- we looked at him- WE GO TO DANCE TO THE DISCO ON THURSDAY?

- Me: YEEEEEEEEEE!! – everybody looked at me scared- I meant, yeah, we could go, right?

- Caitlin: Yeap, It could be cool.

- Justin: Yeah, why not.

- Ryan: Okay, then…umm… we go at 8.45 pm? And we leave when we want to?

- Sammy: Ah ha :).

Okay, then we agreed to go to the disco on Thursday. Today was Tuesday, so I had enough time to think on the dress I was going to wear. :D lol. We finished eating, we took the bus and we went home. It had been a really cool and exhausting day. I entered home and mom was asleep in the sofa with the TV. I switched off the TV and I put a blanket on her body. I went upstairs, brushed my teeth, looked at the window and said good nite to Justin, I put my pajama and I got asleep in the moment when I lay on the bed.

NARRATED BY JUSTIN.

˜ Next day, I woke up and I stayed on the bed thinking. I looked to the roof thinking the same as always. Megan. The days passed by and I loved her more and more. And every time we argued I had remorse and I couldn’t sleep a wink. Every time I saw her with Chaz kissing or whatever, I just wanted to hit something. Every time she smiled, her eyes had a special brightness.  Every time she stared at my lips, I just wanted to do things I didn’t wanna do with anybody….; I had one day exactly to think what I was going to do: Stay with Selena (that I didn’t really love her anymore) or tell my feelings to Megan. Oh well, she was with Chaz, and I was scared: *If I tell her and she tells me: I don’t love you in that way, It’d bring me down…Maybe, it’s better if we’re just best friends and nothing else. I don’t know.* I had a huge mess in my head. I went downstairs and I had breakfast. Mom was talking by the phone, so I decided to go upstairs again and stay at home. Thinking. And I also looked at the wardrobe (coz I had to choose clothes for the next day). Cool dark jeans, but…T-shirt?. Okay, I took my credit card and I noticed mom I was going out. I called Kenny and I told him to take me to the mall. Seconds after--- Ryan call. He needed clothes. XD. I told Kenny to go to his house and we picked him.

We arrived to the mall and we tried many shirts and stuff. We went to many cool shops, but we saw cool shirts on Billabong, so we also entered. I tried a white t-shirt with something written on it (in black, except the “exclusive swag”, coz that was in purple): I got some exclusive swag, dude. –I definitely bough that T-shirt and also a white American jacket. Ryan also found what he was looking for and we left. I wanted to stay the whole afternoon and evening at home. I was lazy. I went downstairs and It was a note on the worktop, I supposed It was from my mom: “Justin, I had to go on a work trip. Our boss allocated us on New Jersey. I’ll be back maximum on 3 days. You’ve enough food and stuff on the fridge. If you need something, I’ve already noticed Lee, Miranda and Janet. So, that was all. Loves, mom. “. Okay, home alone. Cool. It turned my swag on. I put the music really loud and I did dougie, jerk…  

NARRATED BY MEGAN.

On the evening, I looked for a dress in the wardrobe. It was complicated. All of them were beautiful. Then, I saw one I bought on the mall and I hadn’t used yet. It was really short. Red. Tight and with some waves. Also strapless. That was perfect.

˜ …Next day… ˜

I woke up pretty fine. I looked at the clock: 10.43 am. Okay. I looked also at the calendar: O.O in two days it was going to be my sixteen birthday. Yeah. My sweet sixteen. :O. I was already excited. Finally, I was going to be 16! Yeee!. I went downstairs to have breakfast. After that, I went upstairs again and in less than a second: “Me not working hard? Yeah, right picture that with a Kodak. Oh better yet, go to Times Square and take a picture of me with a Kodak. Take my life from negative to positive, I just want ya to know it, and tonight let’s enjoy life, Pitbull, Nayer, Ne-Yo. Tonight… (8) “ My cellphone was ringing, but I couldn’t find it… Suddenly: AH HÁ! Lol. I found it.

˜…CONVERSATION BY THE PHONE…˜

- Me: Yeah?

- xxx: Coooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooookieee- a familiar voice yelled.

- Me: ……wait…Melanie??-said surprised.

- Melanie: The same- laughed.

- Me: Oh my fucking gosh!! Hunnie, how are you?

- Melanie: Oh, really fine. What about you?

- Me: Yeah, pretty fine too. :). By the way, you’re stupid…you’re calling me from Germany. Do you know how expensive it is??- laughed.

- Melanie: Baah, doesn’t matter… I wanted to talk to ya (: The last time I talked to ya was 5 years ago, so…

- Me: Yeah and awwwwwww :’) That’s why I gotta love ya.

- Melanie: Oh, love you too. And, by the way…your sixteen’s birthday is in TWO DAYS!! U excited?

- Me: Yee, so much :). I wish you could be here.

- Melanie: Yeah…well…I’ve a surprise, bu-

- Me: WHAT’S IT? HUH? TELL ME! TELL ME!

- Melanie: Naah, I’m not gonna tell you know. HÁ! LOL.

- Me: You’re bad… ¬¬

- Melanie: Hahaha. I know. Well, I’ll call you in two days, okay?

- Me: Alright. Bye cookie. Love ya.

- Melanie: Love ya too. Byee.

˜…END OF CALL…˜

Melanie was my cousin, but we called each other Cookie. :D. Lol. She always lived in Germany. The last time I saw her was when I was 10, coz they came to visit mom and me to Stratford. But since that day…nothing. She was the best cousin ever. I loved her.

˜ The afternoon passed really fast, I’ve to admit it. It was 5.30 pm and the boredom was killing me. I was laid on my bed, when I saw Justin on the window with a sheet. It said: Have you though what are you wearing? :). I took my notebook and I wrote:

- Me: Yeah, I have. ;) What about you?

- Justin: Me too. I went with Ryan yesterday to but it.

- Me: Cool. So, see ya later (:

- Justin: Yeah, bye.

I lay on the bed again and I took a nap. – After the nap, I looked at the clock: 7.02 pm. Fuck, I had to hurry up. I jumped out of the bed and I had a quick shower. I put on the dress and I took a black wide belt and I put it under the chest area. I took red high heels and a small black purse. I went to the bathroom and I put myself a small toupee with my bang. After, I straight my hair. I put lip gloss and I put a bit mascara in my eyes. To finish, I gave myself perfume and…READY! Ops, I had to take cellphone, keys etc.

- Mom: HUN, THE GUYS ARE WAITING FOR YOU DOWNSTAIRS! I GOTTA GO, BYE!-from the hall.

- Me: OKAY. I’M ALMOST READY!.

It was 7.46 pm and I couldn’t find my keys: Damn. I looked for them all over my room, until I found them on the floor. -.-. Okay, now I was totally ready. I was a bit nervous. :S. I left my room and I started to go downstairs… everybody was with a: O_____O face. XD. The boys started to whistle. I looked at Chaz and Justin that both were with the same face of breaded. Justin was damn sexy that night*_* also Chaz, but Justin was… hguuigkjbikeikjbjh *.*.

NARRATED BY JUSTIN.

Finally, Megan started to go downstairs. No, wait. Was she Megan? O.O Oh my fucking god. I think, I almost got blind with such a beauty. She was really captivating. Sexy. Hot. Wow. It was…DAMN HOT *_*. Everybody started to whistle. I was just a bit breaded. What a chick! And she wasn’t going to be mine tonight. -.-. FUCK.

NARRATED BY MEGAN.

- Caitlin: Girl, you’re really sexy tonight! Like..wow!

- Me: Oh thanks (:

- Ryan: Coz you’re dating Chaz, coz if not, I’ll go to a place to do one thing right now… *-*

- Chris: *__* Me too dude…

- Me: What? What thing?

- Sammy & Caitlin: ¬¬…boys’ pastime.

- Me: Ou… -crestfallen.

Everybody laughed. Even me. Chaz didn’t say anything.

- Me: Earth calling Chaz…are you here?

- Chaz: *__* Yeah… I’m still breaded.

We laughed again and I helped him to stand up. I kissed him so much. And the others were like:

- Chris: *cough* Let a bit for tonight…

- Me: :O Shut up! Hahaha.

Justin was serious again. He called a limousine and it took us to the most popular disco of Atlanta. We entered and it was so many people there. We went to the bar and we asked for some vodka with lemon. We went to the dance floor and we danced so much. The music was really cool. They put: Where them girls at, On the floor, Party rock, Taboo, Give me everything and so many others. Then, It started a song that was to be really close to your partner. And well, Chaz was already a bit drunk. He started to kiss me on the neck. I looked at the other side of the room where Selena and Justin were also eating each other mouths  ._. HE looked at me. And after a second, he started to hold Selena’s bottom. I looked at Chaz and kissed him too. Chaz was starting to caress my left leg. Okay, he was a bit on the roof. XD. He pulled me against him…while kissing. Justin was shocked. We kept dancing. At least, Chaz wasn’t drunk, anymore. Coz he didn’t drink more. I did drink a bit more, but it didn’t make me anything. Chaz went to the sofa while I was taking a glass of punch (coz the vodka lemon was already boring XD). I pasted a sip and I went to the bathroom. Eeeew! It was disgusting. I drank a bit water and  I put a bit more lip gloss. I was saving it when somebody pulled me against its body and put his arms in my waist. I looked at the mirror. It was Justin. I turned.

- Justin: I know your secret…hun.

- Me: Excuse me? I don’t have any secret…and let me go, I wanna dance.

He quickly pulled me against the wall. Softly .  He put that face that drove me crazy and he started to look at me up & down.

- Justin: Yeah you have… -malevolent smile- you don’t love Chaz…

- Me: What?? Yeah, I do love Chaz.

- Justin: Really? Okay…look at my eyes and tell me you love Chaz…

I looked at his eyes. Gosh.

- Me: I…I do.

- Justin: You do what?

- Me: I love *bitting my lip*…Cha…Chaz..

- Justin: *licking his lips and coming nearer* Now, tell me you don’t love me…

- Me: *looking at his lips* I d. I don’t love…

- Justin: I still make you nervous… -bitting his lip.

- Me: No, you don’t. Umm…It’s that…umm.. that you can’t let me breath…:P

- Justin: *putting his forehead in mine’s and looking into my eyes* Now, tell me you don’t wanna me to kiss you right now…*no answer & with sexy voice* that, you don’t wanna me to bit your lip… *no answer *_* * and tell me you  wanna leave… *speechless*.

Oh lord. I think I was flushed and horny already. He was coming slowly to my mouth. He softly pulled me more against the wall…*___*.

- Justin: Tell me when you want me to stop…

Continued coming nearer… O.O. I just wanted to kiss him damn badly. Really. But wait…he was trying to confuse me. Confuse my feelings. Yeah. I think he knew that was my weak point. But, I didn’t gonna let him confuse me anymore. I loved him damn much. But, it wasn’t good at all.

 - Me: Stop. Chaz is waiting me…

I left the bathroom and I just didn’t wanna dance anymore. I felt bad. He used to tell me those things, just to me to feel worse. I looked back before leaving the disco and Justin was already talking to Selena. ¬¬. I left. It was raining so hard…

NARRATED BY JUSTIN.

Megan was leaving. Fuck. I always did something wrong. I just stayed on the bar talking to Selena.

- Me: Selena…you know…you’re so friendly…and we’ve had so many great times… but…

- Selena: Yeah, I know…you love Megan…I accept it… and this relationship wasn’t really… umm…

- Me: Yeah… friends?

- Selena: Sure :).

- Me: Thanks for being so comprehensive.

Okay. That night was going to end…and me…I did one thing good and another wrong: I told the truth to Selena and I was letting Megan let go. It was pissing me off. I was in love with her. Suddenly, Ryan came.

- Ryan: Dude, it’s NOW OR NEVER- tapping me on the shoulder.

- Me: But…if she sa-

- Ryan: If you don’t try, you’ll be sorry all your life. Come on, dude.

I thought better and I ran to the door. She wasn’t really far.

- Me: YOU’RE SO COMPLICATED, LITTLE GIRL.

- Megan: *looking at me with hatred*

She kept walking. She was soaked.

- Me: I CAN’T TAKE IT NO MORE… I’M SO FREAKING IN LOVE WITH YA!! –yelled in the middle of the rain.

TO BE CONTINUED…